Monday, July 26, 2010

"...with joy that is inexpressible and filled with glory."

This post is going to be my very first blog post in my life.

How should I describe my feeling... great?
Ugh, it's frustrating sometimes when I couldn't find a good word to explain my feeling.
But as I am thinking about today, the Lord's Day, I can't explain how much I was blessed and saved by the grace of God.

While I was speaking about Jesus as the light of the world and how Christ showed an example by opening a blind man who was born blind, I was challenged and convicted by God.
"Chris, you said that I am the man of the word. What about you? Are you the light of the world since you are a believer of mine? Have you open someone's eyes?"

There was a moment of feeling guilty once again. The embarrassment in front of my students and teachers was overwhelming. The pressure of not fulling the responsibility started to become another burden in my yoke. What should I do in this complex, stressful situation?

But I started to hear the very soothing voice saying, "Chris, I am the light of the world. I have the light of life. Now, take it and shine the light to people until they see the glimpse of this light." Then, saw each of my students' eyes. Why are their eyes so sparkly as they are looking at their miserable and lame pastor? Jesus saved the day again and my journey of being his servant continues with another bang and boom.

1 Peter 1:8 said, "... with joy that is inexpressible...." What kind of joy? inexpressible, unspeakable, unimaginable......

In Religious Affections, Jonathan Edwards uses this verse to describe how the true church needs to look like. Every person in church filled with this kind of joy every single day, isn't that what we all want? Aren't we all striving our lives to gain this kind of joy?

I pray that God always provides me this kind of joy every single moment of my life. So whenever people ask about my feeling, I can say, "unspeakable joy."

I guess I still have a long way to go to be the man of God.
But I love to experience how God uses this teknia theu (child of God) to shine his light to the world.